today i found myself wondering what the people i know, and people i have known think of me. not like, if they think i'm cool or smart, or funny. more like if i have ever helped them with a problem or situation or decision they had. if i have ever said something that they had listened to.
one thing i know about people is that they prefer not to listen, but to talk. if i begin to talk about my day, or my life, or my thoughts, i can feel the company i'm with shut down. they light up at their turn to go on about themselves, (not an insult, just something i have observed) and listen when their situation is commented upon.
so with this i have learned to say little about myself, and ask about my company often, allowing them to focus on their life. i listen carefully, and try to thoughtfully answer.
i wonder if they hear me. i wonder if they ever think of me and the comments i have made about what they tell me.
for some reason it would make me happy if i had any sort of impact on someone, more than if they even knew who i was.